The Lord provides.
We've had an overwhelming amount of people reach out to us who are walking through similar journeys. Kimberley Mundy, a mom of two young blind children diagnosed with LCA (who live near us!), recently said to me that she certainly doesn't wish this on any child, but it is nice to know they aren't alone on this journey. This could not be more true. Michael and I have an incredible support system, but we needed people that were living it daily like we were. These people have become my lifelines.
One couple's letter to us early on hit close to home and had us both in tears. This family was no stranger to me though. Alex and Mary Beth Buck were good friends of my parents at SMU. They've stayed in touch so we've grown up knowing their family. They have three kids. Their second daughter, Adlaine, was diagnosed with Autism at an early age, and their youngest son, Eiler, was diagnosed with a rare neurological disorder at birth; an unexpected diagnosis as well. My sisters and I have always admired them and have talked for years about what amazing parents they are. The Bucks don't let any limitations a doctor or society might place on their kids because of their diagnosis hold them back. Eiler (now 19) has pretty much blown every doctor's prediction out the window for what they saw for his life; including that he wouldn't live past his first birthday. They are the most positive, fun, and loving parents. Their words to us were so honest and beautiful at a time when we needed it the most.
I've said it before, but I was born to be a mom. I was the kid playing "house" at an age I'm embarrassed to admit. My senior superlative in high school was, "most likely to be a soccer mom." That's what I always thought I'd be. A soccer mom. Not a special needs mom. It took a lot of tears and questioning to accept that this road might be better than the one I had planned for myself. I now know I've been admiring the Bucks for years for a reason. They have paved a beautiful path for those of us faced with a life-changing and unexpected diagnosis. They give me hope.
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When Presley was just two weeks old, my aunt, Vicki Gillespie, was talking to a nurse she works with, Cindy Asche, about Presley. Cindy's jaw dropped and went on to tell my aunt that her good friend works with a little boy in Frisco who she thought also had the same rare eye disease and was blind. They couldn't believe it. Cindy reached out to her friend who immediately wanted to help us in any way she could and told Cindy to pass on her contact information so I could reach out to her when I was ready.
I was ready. Considering Michael and I didn't know anything about blindness or know a single person that was blind, I didn't want to waste any time reaching out to someone who works with visually-impaired children and could help. We were completely devastated and scared for Presley's future. Getting in contact with Shannon Kilburn, a Vision teacher in Frisco, was the turning point for us. She was an answered prayer before I even knew what to pray for. She sent me the sweetest email back encouraging us and giving us a wealth of information. She saved us hours of stressing over research and phone calls. We are SO thankful to my aunt and Cindy for connecting us to Shannon so early on. It was the best thing that could have happened to us.
Our plans had always been to live in our M Streets house until Presley was in kindergarten or we outgrew it and then move to where we wanted our kids to go to school. Early Childhood Intervention (ECI) will start working with kids like Presley immediately. As of now, Presley needs a Vision Teacher and Orientation and Mobility Specialist, which is provided free through the school district. I had just had a baby, my baby had just had an eye surgery on each eye, and now I needed to find a house in a district that has the best services for children like her. This easily could have been overwhelming and stressful. But it wasn't. Shannon initiated and researched districts we were interested in for us. She didn't even know us, but she was going above and beyond for us.
She also told me about the little boy she works with, Ollie Park, and his family. Ollie was also born blind and diagnosed with FEVR as a baby. The fact that this family was living in Frisco--just 30 miles from us--was truly a miracle. Michael jumped into every FEVR/blind parent support group he could find on social media, but most people with our diagnosis (there aren't a lot of us) had FEVR in one eye only and thus had some (if not all) usable vision in the other. Our doctor in Detroit had told us, "we were an unusual case of a rare disease." Try wrapping your head around that. FEVR in itself is rare; FEVR causing bilateral retinal detachment from birth is even more rare since neither parent is blind. This family could have been anywhere in the world. But they were in Frisco, Texas. Insert praise hands. Shannon gave me Ben and Mimi Park's contact information and said they would love to talk to us and help in any way that they could.
Mimi and I talked on the phone when Presley was three weeks old. She was real, encouraging, and incredibly supportive. She told me that she was there for me whenever I needed. If I needed to cry/vent/ask questions/meet for coffee, she was available 24/7. It was like a ton of bricks were lifted off my shoulders in a second. She's also as witty as they come and has a great sense of humor. While talking to her, I learned that Ollie also saw the same doctor in Detroit and now has light perception as a result of his surgery. Mimi told me if anyone could do anything, it was Dr. Capone. We are in the best hands.
"Bumps and bruises" has been Ben's motto since Ollie was diagnosed. They do not hold back on anything just because Ollie is blind. He experiences everything his three sighted older brothers do. As a result, he is right on track with his same-aged peers and has such a good understanding of the world around him.
A week before Christmas we got together with the Kilburns and Parks. It was the best day. After all, I consider them family now. I had gone to lunch with Shannon and Mimi about a month before and talk to them regularly, but this was the first time for Michael to meet them and for us to meet their families...and the man of the hour, Ollie. While we (and family and friends--sorry Mimi) have all done our fair share of stalking Ollie videos, we were finally meeting the little boy who has given us so much hope. To be honest, we were nervous. Insanely excited, but nervous. We, like most of you reading this, had never interacted with a blind person before (other than our baby). Any nerve I had went away the second he walked in, and I felt foolish for even being nervous. It was like I was talking to any other child. He is just like his brothers (his ridiculously sweet and polite brothers). He just experiences things differently because he can't see. He was full of questions and wanted to hold "Baby Presley" the entire time. What a beautiful, special picture that was. He is hilarious and one of the happiest kids I've ever seen. Meeting him far exceeded any expectations we had. We talked about it for the next 24 hours--with huge smiles on our faces. Thank you Ben and Mimi for sharing him with us. This kid is going places.
While Frisco Texas was never on our radar of places to raise our family, this is where the Lord has called us. We only moved two weeks ago and know this is where we are supposed to be right now. Our nextdoor neighbor, Brianna Lindholm, is already my new favorite person and has been so good to us. Oh, and when I met her she told me she has family members that were blind and she's good friends with Mimi and the Park family. She also gets severe migraines--for those of you that have grown up with me and been out at a restaurant where I am embarrassingly holding a glass of ice to my head and look like I am about to get sick because I was tired of them keeping me in bed, you know these are no joke. It can be hard for people that don't get migraines to understand how debilitating they are. If the way we got this house wasn't enough of a sign we were meant to live here, she is.
When our realtor (shout-out to Tim & Ashlee Troop for selling me on this neighborhood) sent over a list of houses for sale, I got excited because I liked most everything about this one particular house. I told him I wanted to see it, and he was going to try and set something up for two days later. I even drove by it the next day and peeked in the windows (new build, not creepy). I called Michael after I drove by it and told him that I thought I had found our new home. It was on a quiet street with a large park, walking trail, and amenity center with a community pool across the street where they have holiday parties, concerts, etc. A block to the left would be a brand new elementary school and park. I could picture it. More importantly, I could picture Presley running around experiencing life and gaining her independence there. Come to find out that night, the house went under contract the same day that I found it. Emotional me, cried, really cried. We asked if we could put in a back-up offer but the contract was already in, and they were not taking back-up offers. They said I could email them our information and if for some weird reason something fell through, they would let us know. I emailed our story and received a response almost immediately back. The realtor was extremely empathetic and said she wished she could do something, but her hands were tied. Well, not even three days later, I got an email that the people suddenly got cold feet. She could not get us out of her head, and at the first sign of them wavering, she told them she would continue to show the house if they couldn't commit. They backed out, we went to see it the next day, and the house was ours. It all happened so fast we were a little nervous but this was clearly meant to be our house. I even started crying with the realtor...and made her cry. No shortage of tears over here. Whenever I start to doubt God, He steps in--in big ways. God is always good.
We are so excited to have Shannon start working with Presley as her Vision teacher--I wasn't sure if this was going to be a possibility or not so to say we are excited is really the understatement of the century. She will be coming to our house once a week to work (okay play) with Presley while she is a baby and will continue to do so until she is three. Presley will then go to a special pre-school and then our goal is to mainstream her in Frisco schools where Shannon will continue to work with her. Shannon is a huge blessing. Having to schedule weekly "therapy" sessions because your child will learn differently is not easy. It's not easy to open your home up to someone under these circumstances; especially when you are an introvert like myself. It is easy though when it is someone like Shannon. She is not just my daughter's Vision teacher. She is my friend, which makes all the difference in the world.
I still get sad for Presley, but I would not trade this experience for the world. Michael and I both grew up living in a bubble. I went to Trinity Christian Academy from K-12th grade and then went on to Texas A&M with over half my graduating class. Michael grew up in Colleyville and then went to Abilene Christian where his family has a huge presence. His 10 best guy friends from elementary school are still his best friends to this day. This experience has opened a door to a whole new world for us. People like us, and people different than us. It is so beautiful and has already taught us so much. I've lost count of how many times we've looked at each other and said, "they are just really good people."
2016 was the hardest and best year of our life. We're starting the new year stronger and better versions of ourselves. Happy 2017 friends!